life, in general - never published

So what can you say about your life right now?

I can say almost, sadly, verbatim, everything I imagined on a bad night at Harpos back in early 2002. When I was questioning how much money I would need to live in different cities, if I would be recreating scenes from Boiler Room, and maybe more, if I would travel to different cities to gloat, and whatnot. I always, always, back in those days, imagined myself as a 28 year old burnout, living in what should be his victory place, vodka + tonic in hand, wondering how he became so lonely. And it has almost become completely true. For more reference, I suggest the Lush album, “Lovelife.” First, I am younger than I imagined in this fantasy. Second, I make more money than imagined in this fantasy. And third, the reality is a little rougher than I thought it would be. So how does this compare to you? I never thought that I’d reevaluate life like this. But I did. And have. And its not familiar to me, nor should it be. And its not comfortable. Which is of utmost importance right now. I have become a great fan of comfortable things lately.